I’m at a stage in my life where I feel like I’m being pulled in many directions at the same time. There are so many possibilities that I’m afraid to do anything so I don’t close all the other doors. I feel that right now, I am at the point where I choose what I will do and what will define me for the rest of my life. I have to decide if I’ll take a hard, high-risk approach or try to do something safer. And the worst part is just how long this decision takes. Like right now, I’m somewhere in between the risky and the safe and I can’t chose which side of the fence to jump down on.
But the thing is, what I do now, that doesn’t have to be what I do forever. It’s really hard for me to internalize that. A job that I work now, a place that I live now, that isn’t set in stone for the rest of my life. Things are always changing. Sure, taking some opportunities makes you lose out on some others. But the alternative is taking no opportunities and losing out on all of them. Honestly, I’m writing this to help myself, mostly. Hopefully, by saying it out to the world, I’ll really take it to heart. I’m 23, I’ll figure something out.
For now, traveling around hasn’t been so bad. Soon, I’ll start a one man company so I can start accepting freelance payments. Not a bad start. Maybe starting a small company like that will help me get some useful experience for eventually opening a coffee shop. I know that sometimes I want everything to happen now, at this moment, but some things are worth waiting for. At least for a little while.
